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Sunday, November 15, 2009 @ 8:53 PM

.. i soOoOOoO need someone by my side now.. i feel pathetic today . pathetic fat ass cow!!.. i feel like my old self is back... the old unmotivated, negative thinker back. i felt like as if i am back to 17 the old 17 year old girl. the unmotivated, negative thinker ,

well i am worried, sad, confuse y still riduan never msg me? i have bad feelings about this..

next i am still uncomfortable with my body but i cant stop eating.. i dunno my discipline sucks like hell !!
i need biggest loser..
i am feeling pathetic today i want to go out and DANCE! . but wth ! i can't ... i want to m,eet up with my old classmate... i dunno some how i miss munierah, hidayah, fairus intan. n munkhan ...
i want to chat n hang out!!!...
aaaaah so random. if u dun understand than nvm!

@ 6:17 PM

hi all im hurt hurt hurt ... hurt like a knive being shove up on my heart..

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Saturday, November 14, 2009 @ 11:20 PM

hi fellow people ehehe... how r u guys hopefully u guys doing great. i want to ask everybody here. have u ever relate ur love life wit the one u saw in tv?expecially korean drama...the way they show the love is so romantic n tears dropping!>>haiiiz... well i dunno but this lead to my story. so i met a guy . he is engaged . what i know about him is he is wonderful guy. n he said he n his fiance have a problem. n he is thinking of letting her go. because on her side to she is dating anothr guy behind his back. The think is i might have fallen for him . he is a great guy!! he is super sweet, super charming n super caring nice . haiiz... he paid for my pre paid card( for my phone that is) he would call or msg me every single day without fail he would even wake m up . as u guys know i alwys wake up darn late !. he would even call me during work coz he said he miss my voice! n i dun own leona lewis voice.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh i m stress out just thinkig about him. i love him but i cant.n i never being in a relationship maybe this is my chance but how?.... haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiz .... anywho . today i will start my dieting have to think thin! !!! hopefully amiiiiiiiiiiiin

Monday, November 9, 2009 @ 9:54 AM

"it is easy for u to say that " It's only a joke!!!" but not easy for me. for someone that is ugly and fat . its always a joke or the person who everyone dislike!. i had never heard people say . o my that gerl is so gorgeous, hot, pretty can i have her number. televisions are liars . the fact is in all human heart are just some stinky dirty bitches who only want something good for them self. a nice gerlfren a nice boyfren . but y nt that fat girl? y y not her ?! because people might mistaken u dating that ugly fat ass girl!! cause people might say u dating that fat ass . HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH. Y!?!? Y MUST U LAUGH?!?!?!?!?! ISSIT A JOKE . THAT GIRL IS STILL HUMAN !!!!. i am not going to chill with the others ne more! it just kill me so deeply inside!! i dun want anyhing bad happen to me!! i am going back to my roots~~. just plain old me ! no one understands me like how i have been gone through! i maybe smiling outside but i am still crying inside! what ever it is i dun think ite is there for me! :(.....